You're still on the north shore of the Sea of Galilee, watching the disciples enjoy the smell of the breakfast Jesus is preparing for them. You're not eating. just watching ... and learning more about your own relationship with the Lord.
One of the things you've been noticing is how gradual their recognition of the risen Lord has been. At first, when they saw Jesus from the boat, "they did not realize that it was Jesus." Now, although, "they realized it was the Lord," they're still a bit tentative, almost as if it's too good to be true.
Another thing you notice is how different the risen Lord looks. Rising from death isn't like curing a sickness - the restoration to life as it was. It is a birth into a transformed human life.
You wonder if the disciples' reluctance to ask Jesus, "Who are you?" is because they're afraid he'll be disappointed in them. They figure they're not supposed to have any doubts.
Why would they do that? Everyone should be able to talk straight to Jesus. On the other hand, you realize that you sometimes avoid straight talk with Jesus.
You watch for a chance, and then manage to get a couple of minutes alone with the Lord to talk about this. you tell him up front that sometimes you're reluctant to tell him exactly what you're thinking or feeling. He starts out by saying that you did pretty well right there in saying what you just said.
You're off to a good start.
- Little White Book, Diocese of Saginaw